That's me. Jessica. 24 years old. College graduate. And overweight. Morbidly obese by medical standards. And it's been that way my whole life. I remember being eight years old and deciding with my friend that we were going on a diet. I remember my mom giving me tips and advice on losing weight and eating healthy. I remember being looked at as inferior by my peers. I've broken down into tears in fitting rooms on several occasions. And I've always tried this or that to lose weight, only to fail over and over again.
My weight hasn't affected my health yet, but every day I get closer and closer to diabetes and heart disease. That isn't the way I want to spend my life. I want to have kids in the next couple of years and I want to be a healthy, active mother for them. I want to provide a good example. I want to travel and be able to explore faraway destinations without my weight holding me back. I want to be able to wear the latest trends and fashions, not shop from plus size sections. I want to wear a bathing suit and have people stare because I look good, not because they're wondering why I'm wearing one.
So here I am, four months shy of my 25th birthday. I want to, and I am going to, find something that works for me. I'm going to learn that every meal is not my last and I don't have to get the most delicious thing on the menu. I'm going to learn that waking up to go for a run is going to benefit me far greater than the extra half hour of sleep. I'm going to stop eating compulsively and then feel shame and guilt afterwards. I'm going to crave fruits and vegetables, instead of cookies and cheeseburgers.
So this blog will be a documentation of what works and what doesn't work. It will be honest. It will be graphic. I will post half naked pictures of myself and reveal the true number on the scale every week. I will record what I have eaten, how much exercise I have gotten, and my thoughts as I go along.
I, and hopefully any followers of this blog, will hold myself accountable for my actions.
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